Since my Aunt died I feel weird. I know she’s not suffering anymore though, so I guess it’s good she has passed. I hated seeing her suffer and have to go through all that pain. I do wish that she would have pulled through and made some sort of recovery and had a couple years of life left. I didn’t expect her to pass so soon…

My schedule for college next semester is hectic. Tuesdays and Thursdays I’ll be in school from 11 - 7 with only about an hour break altogether. Monday and Wednesday aren’t bad at all. Friday I have no classes. :D

I got my class schedule. It really sucks. Its as followed.

monday 11-11:50, 1:15 - 2:30, 5 - 6:15

tuesday 11:30 - 12:45

wednesday 11 - 11:50, 1:15 - 2:30, 5 - 9:15

 thursday 11:30 - 12:45

friday 11 - 11:50

Ugh, my best days are gonna be tuesday, thursday n fridays.

I have an appointment Monday to try and see if I can get my financial aid stuff straightened out. I cannot afford to have them take all that money away. I feel so stressed out lately, and I just don’t know what to do if they tell me they can’t help. I am not taking out student loans, no way. I’ll end up in debt even worse! I can’t take it right now. blah.

school isn’t goin great. i dont know what the heck to do. they’re giving me less than half the money that i usually get. there are no jobs around here. i feel like im stuck in a frikkin hole. i have an appointment monday to talk with the advisor. i guess i’ll figure it out then…

does it ever get easier? does life ever truly come with help? too bad there’s not a instruction manual for life.